Ritkasuke

The words echo heavily on my ears like a volcano burning all the idiotic truths I held close to my heart. These days leave me feeling scared of the time. I must fight to exist in a world people see through me like water. My Sister is Dead. Tiawa... that name I whisper... knowing she will never wake never smile never exist. I felt like she was just here yesterday, telling me her troubles and joking like we always did. 1 Year it's been, and nothing can hold a candle to the memories I hold on to. Like the dreams that I never want to wake up from. She's there in the most unhealthy way. I have so many fears from nightmares and dreams. Sleep i welcome and never want to wake up from because my sister is there. But then there are the nightmares where I'm forever giving CPR to her and she's not waking up... Yeah. I was there. I brought her back. I felt her arm touch me, telling me she's still alive.... but she became brain dead in the hospital. I would have kept her on life support

Good evening, I'm getting married to Tyler. He proposed to me three months ago and I said "yes". I couldn't believe it, I was so happy and excited. We aren't having a big wedding or anything, just a marriage certificate. We might have a ceremony after COVID but yeah. We are going to get Lord of the rings ring bands. I'm going to change my last name to Porter. It's what I've dreamed about and now it's going to happen. Oh and my Grandma passed away. and I lost my job, but I'm getting married to the love of my life. Oh and I might be pregnant...